Jitters

How do  i describe this? My stomach is still churning and tied in an uncomfortable knot despite the weekend nearing.  I must have made a decision too fast befor weighing certain criteria and things. I am surprise at the way its leaving me worried within. I am not sure if i will stick to it. Thank God for the weekend no doubt. There ought to be some time locking in prayer.  perhaps its not the right time for me to take a chance….

I wasn’t the ideal. perhaps they needed to cover their blooper urgently so it was handover to me. 25 minues of training………..? God did i do the right thing? Help me.

Huggiz

Until the day’s aim

Looks like someone has to get back to serious business. The mirror told me  as i took time to check myself. And yes it was upsetting. Looks like strict dieting has to come back into the picture  or else my dream will be a misty cloud. Until the day’s aim.

This is not happening……………………

=(

Something beautiful happened to me…

Its a little difficult to shield/contain something so pretty. Its a little challenging to not share the happenings of something so special to me. There is this feeling to want to tell the world about it and truly dance the dance that i am in.

With that leap you see

With that grin you feel

With that song you think

With that heart you win.

Something beautiful happened to me.

And i am so tempted to spell it out.

High Tide 1.

Whispers of life juz pass you by once. If you think twice, how do you explain the rest that are coming by. Sometimes its not about the tide of nights. But the heart and your own mind.

Take a moment think twice. Take a moment think thrice. Take a moment to drink down. Take a moment and keep in touch. There is only one heart/ peace of mind.

I see the ..secluded task. I see the demand. I see the tough ones. I see how they will not collide. You know my stubborn mind and you know my stubborn heart. you know how i just don’t give up. You know how i will survive. You know how i care for the one. and you know how i don’t allow manipulation of mind. Its good to think twice but is it good to just stand and decide? How do you explain to me these tides? How do you explain to me these demands? I mean come on..How long do people want to box themselves up? I am actually pretty upset listening up. But i will not deny. And i don’t intend to turn a blind eye. Reality is the best dose most times. I believe in facing things up. Looking in the eye and challenging it up. So if its mine. it will be mine. And you will have no place to say it right. Cause at the end of the day you are not the one. But i totally receive ya tides. Trust me its good facing things head on sometimes. So i totally appreciate the tide high inside out.

Nothing happens by chance. so i am not gonna let it slide. Beat me up if u must. I will survive. ♥

Time of My Life.

How do i express my heart?

How do i see the light?

How do i say what is on my mind?

How do i touch?

There were many eyes.

There were many minds.

There were many smiles.

But there is only one side.

And i am left thinking twice.

What now?

I will survive.

Drinking It In.

There always comes a point in life when we have to make decisions. Decisions that challenge. Decisions that settles and decisions that create discomfort. Yet without all this imperfections i don’t see how there would be a reason to taste any form of reason or trigger that is yet to test your buckle.

So perhaps none of us see an answer and a nature. But the path will lead each purpose. I am building up on that treasure to not regret any decisions that others may think in appropriate. I do not discount their views ahead. I do treasure the things that concerns them. Yet who are we to say, when we ourselves have not put our hands in the very bowl we are mixing in play.

The few days indulgence has led this eyes to open. And this mind to be awaken. Too much is never healthy and too little could sometimes be not the best option.  Moderation and balance is the option that could be the solution to many opinion or problems.

Love is such a beautiful thing when it drinks you in with such indescribable melody.I allowed myself to slip within. I allowed myself to drink in the grinz. I allowed myself to kiss never ending-ly and i allowed myself to feel within. And in all this sometimes little thoughts creep within.  I see it silly to allow doubts to sip in and whip me. Why allow such things to whip me when a decision make is a decision made at ease. If you see a complication, than the next step is the solution to correct it.  I will not back down juz because of an overwhelming feeling. And i will not back down just because some people think certain things. AT the end of the day, its seriously about what you think, feel and perceive for every decision make comes from your pedigree.  and i am confident about me and what i decide to feel. =) No Worries~.

I am glad for mistakes and steps that are missed. Cause these things leads to better things and better quality of feel. I am worthy and so is he. There is nothing called impossible if two people can work with things fulfilling it.

Wonder Me? I am just ordinary.

One of the things that i am most particular about my whole new me is me remembering that ‘upgrading’ the nose to point up in the air is not  the way  a person should be.  but i don’t understand certain energy/vibes that i tapped upon ladies who meet me. They are people i know, people who know me, people who saw me before and now is experiencing a brand new She. And i am not sure why some of them just gives me an uncomfortable feeling. Like as if the brand new me they are seeing is just something they find hard to agree with. Perhaps i am thinking too much into it. But i juz had that uncomfortable encounter with somebody that is very closed to the heart of a loved one of mine. Man the wall was concrete. I was alittle upset about it and could not project myself genuinely since i know the person probably wished she did not have to encounter me.

Its not a very comfortable feeling meeting such superficialness but than again i can’t just point a finger and say she has a problem.I guess it happens. Things change and some people probably need some time to believe things, accept things and so on and so forth. And i on the other hand, stucked in that uncomfortable moment should probably see something positive in it than waste my energy cribbing on what other people think about my whole regime. I can’t please everybody and don’t want to go back down there again just to create a comfortable feeling. I am sorry. I truly want to live the life God has given me and experience it to the fullest.

Yes it does hurt my heart when those uncomfortable energy hit me. But than again, i just am thankful to God that i am able to look beyond that and turned in constructively. I am just very thankful about that. And of course the bottom fact of how it does naturally happen with all woman possibly.

I guess it time it will all switch. For now, i am just taking it as constructive and motivate myself further within. Probably the dose i need to soar closer to the dream. It has been an inspiring Journey. Totally thank God for all the wonderful people and changes he is making for me! Praise You surely! hehe..

So i am thankful for tonight
And the unexpected hit.
I believe its all part and parcel of
tunring within.
In time all will come and swing.
Yipeee.. thats how i would like to see
it come to be.

The statement i made to encourage me : The downside of things makes it even more worthy to work it. Think constructive Criticism and dismiss the negative despite the irony. We will never understand their energy. Forget it.~ ♥Huggiz/ cheeries!♥

Cheeries!