My Everything…

Jitters

How do  i describe this? My stomach is still churning and tied in an uncomfortable knot despite the weekend nearing.  I must have made a decision too fast befor weighing certain criteria and things. I am surprise at the way its leaving me worried within. I am not sure if i will stick to it. Thank God for the weekend no doubt. There ought to be some time locking in prayer.  perhaps its not the right time for me to take a chance….

I wasn’t the ideal. perhaps they needed to cover their blooper urgently so it was handover to me. 25 minues of training………..? God did i do the right thing? Help me.

Huggiz

Until the day’s aim

Looks like someone has to get back to serious business. The mirror told me  as i took time to check myself. And yes it was upsetting. Looks like strict dieting has to come back into the picture  or else my dream will be a misty cloud. Until the day’s aim.

This is not happening……………………

=(

A Settlement, Finally.

A settlement has finally been made after a long duration. That was quite a ride for most of us existing. Many were infact going through about the same things. A workmate emotions hit the tip when asked to express our thoughts. And no doubt there has been lots of things hanging still unsettled in the area addressing. I was surprisingly calm listening. I gave in a few pointers to think. This brings me back to the phrase on how two heads are indeed better than one mostly.

This frame of thought has been on my mind recently on how we were never meant to walk through life alone. Its God intended possibly thinking back to the things i used to read. This new frame of top is definitely refreshing and does give me a new perspective. Life is not meant to be spent individually. Its meant to be shared. Its meant to bring reconciliation with everybody. Obviously this is just the positive side of things. There is a downside to it that obviously does not deserve too much attention to be concrete. At the end of the day, we do have to force ourselves to be positive and work out things accordingly whether someone is being a pain in the ass or not.

The recent events in life did help me  see certain things spiritually. And i have to say the good does come out of the bad actually. Its just a matter of time which is often trying. Btw i wish not to be too happy and dandy. There are still quite a few things on my mind that i need to work out in time. For now, its just one step at a time.

On another note, i have been reading blogs plus my own old posts on my present blog. And i have to say it does give an inviting feeling to return and share myself. I was in two minds about it. But as time passed, i do realise that writing does give me a leash of life and insight. Its one way i can sum up and one way i can realise. Obviously it gets a little challenging when someone i know, particularly my beloved bf reads my stuff. I do get insecure thoughts like what if he thinks i am all talk and know nuts. That was one of the deadful feeling that stops me sometimes. But at the end of the day, when i think about it. I realised that was quite a crazy thought somewhat and perhaps a good one in disguise cause it just brings me back to the credibility of how words matter much. No offense sweetheart. *HUGZ*

And also the joy of being able to open up and allow someone to read me up. R has been supportive and wonderful so far. So lets hope for the best aites. For now, i am lost on which blog i truly want to spend my time updating much. Its tricky having two but a comfort to just write without worry much. Perhaps two shall be interesting for now. The one that i invest most time in would probably be the one. So as they often relate, the best man wins! As for this, it would be the best blog wins!

God bless me! Cheeries!

Rewind

Flipping back the pages of old brought some good moments to mind.

Turning back to look at the mirror i would not accept otherwise.

What happened to sunshines?

Fake U!

What are you to do when the heart pricks like nobody business?

 If two heads are too hard to reconcile than where would the substance measure?

One has to linger if not the other.

 

Its admirable when one can just put away emotions and forget promises.

Indeed a challenge.

 

Or perhaps juz execution.

Erase every fibre of ‘good moments’

And carry on the love

with better moments

in a brand new world

without old existence.

 

Don’t tell me i am indifferent

When you are the one who drifted

And don’t tell me i am wrong

when time and time again you

prove ‘your so-called worth’.

 

Words…

How dangerous.

 

Ignorance they say is bliss

But what if it hurts?

 

Ego does keep you hardened.

I don’t like the coils of wire it distributes

into a character.